You Make It Real.

There's too many things I haven't done yet. 

Too many sunsets I haven't seen. 

You can waste the day wishing it'd slow down.

You would've thought by now, 

I'd have learned something. 

I made up my mind when I was a young girl, 

I've been given this one world. 

I won't worry it away. 

But now and again I lose sight of the good life,

I get stuck in a low light.

But then love comes in.

Many The Miles - Sara Bareilles

South African Sunsets

You Make It Real

As I'm driving home from class tonight a song came on that transported me right back in time. There I was, sixteen year old me, on a breezy spring day watching my boyfriend clean out his room blasting "Shooting Star" by Bad Company. My gaze fell upon him, outlining his masculine structure, loving every bit of him being mine. In that moment of time, no one could tell me any different. I was going to marry him. I'd probably never leave Bensalem, however, it didn't matter as long as I had him....
(Music brings memories to life so easily for me. Love/hate it.) 




If someone were to tell me then I would be a world traveler, I would live in New York City and I'd kiss a thousand frogs before I found my Prince Charming I would have bluntly called them crazy. Ahhh, young love. As a twenty-two year old, I would love to try to tell the young women I know not to take their relationships too seriously or dramatic. However, feeling that pain and then freedom has been the start of my beautiful self discovery. SO maybe everyone needs a little rumble im their well laid plans to birth a fresh start.

Another New Beginning, Or Err Finishing An Old One?

Recently, after a two year hiatus, I decided to go back to college. A week after feeling the urge to be back in class, I was! My goal is to be a journalist, travel the world and write about it. I have a lot of work to do, two more years of classes and a whole lot of busting my ass to get there. This, yet again, new path I've decided to travel down has brought me to several realizations. Not only has being back in college, but the trials and tribulations of my closest friends surfaced "AH HA" moments for me as well.  


A few days ago I made a Facebook status saying this: 

"Ladies, if you're looking or wanting a boy to fill a void in your heart, simply dig up a dream of yours you have yet to conquer and chase it. There's plenty of time to have babies, get married and live in the same old routine everyday."

Firstly, it didn't just have to be a message for the ladies. Men can certainly relate to this as well. What I meant by that status was simply this. Live life just as you want to. Don't worry about someone loving you because there is someone for everyone and when you're the happiest with yourself that person you're meant to be with will show up at just the right time. All too often we can get caught up in falling in love. (Believe me. I've done this more than most people.) Falling in love is one of the greatest experiences we get as humans. But know this, there's a great BIG HUGE GINORMOUS world out there. It's meant to be discovered by each one of us. We have to leave some kind of imprint upon it for our children and grandchildren to be able to smile about one day. We're always going to be in some sort of debt, we're always going to have priorities to take care of and someone to answer to in some form. Explore every piece of who you are, who you think you might be, or who you want to be now. 

Destination: Unknown 

Personally, I'm not even close to finding the whole of who I am or what my purpose is. I have this intense craving for seeking everything in life. There's no way I can settle myself down or pretend it's not there. I'm ferociously hungry for life. Some of you may not feel this way. You may be perfectly ready to settle down, which is a whole other beautiful journey in itself. And just because you may have a husband or kids, you shouldn't feel your dreams are unattainable. All I'm saying is, if you have a craving to seek something out, do not stop until it's fulfilled. You sure as hell do not want to wake up one day to screaming kids and a hungry husband wishing you could be somewhere else. I'm going to seek out all of my curiosities so when that time comes, I won't want to be anywhere else in the world. 


Ladies or even gentlemen with babies (either planned or unplanned) never feel as though that's the end of your road. Possibilities to life are endless. If anything, your child will forever cherish the courage you had to live your dream. Your children will not only be proud of you, but will be excited to live up to the standard you have set as an example for them. 

Destination: South Africa .... Wait, WHAT?!

I get on these little trips of mine where I have these urges to do something. Ninety-five percent of the time I do what ever is thumping in my heart to experience. Just two weeks after taking on the decision to become a full time student at night in addition to already having a full time job, I added a trip to South Africa on my plate. I'll be juggling makeup jobs, weddings, finishing the semester and properly organizing my full time job, bills and life while preparing to go on this trip across the world in June. Danielle, one of my best friends will actually be on the trip with me! We'll be volunteering with elephants, horses, and the safari! The moment I get to be next to an African elephant I may just faint. (The reality of this trip hasn't even hit me yet.) I have no idea how I will financially or emotionally carry this all out, but I have faith in it all working itself out. Call me crazy, cause I just might be! :) 


I once had a friend of mine, Erlene, tell me:  "Home is home. It will always be there." --- This has always stayed in my mind. I have always been such a homebody. This made me realize I can be anywhere in the world and know where my heart lies. I know I have some place full of "I Love Yous" accompanied by endless hugs and kisses. That will never go away, so why the hell not travel the world! Or down the street or just in the United States or even my own mind. Journeys are not always those trips where we travel great distances. Some of the most profound journeys have been the ones within our hearts and minds. 

CHALLENGE: Excepted?

Don't do this for me, but do it for yourself. I'm just probing you to make it happen. 

Create a little goal list for yourself for this year. (Thank You Ryan for encouraging me to do mine!) 

As crazy as some of the goals may seem, write them down anyway. You will find a way to make things happen for yourself if you truly want them! Look at it everyday or every other day. By thinking about it constantly your desire to acquire it will become intensified and BAM...before you know it it'll be something you can place a check mark next to. 

"To achieve the impossible; it is precisely the unthinkable that must be thought." 

- Tom Robbins

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JUST FOR FUN!

After my last Blog a friend of mine sent me a funny dating story. ENJOY!

Here’s an amusing story! After breaking off my 3 year relationship with my ex, I had NO clue how to go back into the dating world. So, I also joined an online dating site called OKCupid. I met a boy on there that was cute, sweet, and pretty successful for a 22 year old. Our first date went okay. We met up at Fridays, not before embarrassing myself. He called to see if I got out of work, and when we hung up, he ended it with “Okay, can’t wait to meet you. See you there!” My response? “Uhhhh, okay, thanks, see you, okay, thank you, bye.” 

Date 2, he invited me to a house party he was having with a few friends. He was nervous about me coming over….he spent the night puking in his sink after consuming too much beer. 

I gave him the benefit of the doubt and went on Date 3….and ohhhh boy. 

Date 3 we went to see a band he liked at North Star Bar. We get there and we talk some, listen to the openers. Mind you, NO alcohol was consumed. Before the main act comes on, I felt a little weird and light headed, so I went to get a glass of water from the bar, alone. I go up, ask for it…next thing I know I am on the ground. I PASSED OUT. Still don’t know why, must have been too hot in the bar? I am sensitive to heat. 

Anyway, I pass out. They pull me onto a chair, and the bartenders are asking me all these questions. I can’t remember this kids name, I am confused, and going in and out of consciousness. They finally get the kids name out of me; they call him from the front of the stage to the back to get me 

They start interrogating him now. Asking him if he slipped anything to me, what he knew about me. He had no clue what was going on, and it being our third date, didn't know much information about me. 

I hit my head pretty bad so they took me to the Hanneman hospital in an ambulance. He met me there and had to speak to my mom (whom he never met) on the phone about what happened. We sat until about 6 am waiting for the results of the tests they ran. It was kind of awkward. 

He drove me home….and I never heard from him again! Nor do I blame him! Probably thought I was some weirdo.

- Caitlin Angelone

Curiosity Hasn't Killed This Cat.

It's been quite a while since I have wrote to my fellow blog readers! A LOT has been going on...So let me cover some ground in this one. :) 

Firstly, I moved out! 

I've been wanting to do this since I moved home from New York City! I found myself a quirky, perfect one bedroom apartment right in Bensalem! 

My Dad and Mom went with me to get my first Christmas tree, then helped me decorate it! Here's a little ornament picture! 

And in my cool ass apartment, I have a fake fireplace. (Which is my favorite thing!) So I made a cool chalkboard to rest on the mantle. All of my beautiful friends and my two cousins wrote on it. Now I feel like I can't ever erase it. 

And one of my other loves, my album collection, has a beautiful home here as well. I need to find something decorative and cool to store them in eventually. I'm kind of going to let it find me though. 

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SO, now on to the juice of my life for the past few months. 

It's been since September...wow has a lot been going on. I can't even believe The Season Of Love is here. Christmas Day is two days away... 

It's about time I unleash on you beautiful people some of my juicy love life secrets. I don't believe in hiding how you feel or what's going on inside your head, so I'm certainly not going to hold back. 

There's a lot of catching up to do. I'll just start from an important part. ;) 

Musically Bound, Forever.

"Well, I've played the game before. And the wisdom I'm passing on to you. Cause Love is so much more, more than just a crazy game."

My love life certainly has been a roller coaster. A mild one for those viewing from the outside. But from here, inside my heart, I have been on the ride of my life.

 I'd have to say one of the hardest experiences I've had to deal with was falling for a friend. It's easy to catch feelings for someone when you hang out with them everyday. It's even easier to catch feelings when  they're one of the most beautiful men you have met in your life. Driving yourself literally insane because you can't imagine how to express to them what they mean in your heart is exhausting. Connecting with a person, that forms into romantic feelings is more than physical. It's agreeing on points about life, it's picturing them in the future taking life by the horns, its laughing, loving, understanding and having a special aspect of life to love together. 

"Time can always heal a broken heart, when you know in your mind he still holds a part."

My story may not have ended the way I wanted it to at the time, but it ended the way it naturally was supposed to. You love, learn and move forth. Our friendship hasn't skipped a beat. I actually feel it's a better friendship because there's a mutual love and respect from a different point of view. I'm blessed and thankful. It's not everyday you get to keep someone you laid such deep feelings for, to love forever.

Moving on from that was simple because it was all handled with complete maturity. Lay it out, hug it out, move on. Life can't be lived with your feelings chained up inside. Nothing good can come from that, ever. Putting it all out on the line sets you free. You'll never ask why or say what if. 

"There comes a time in every life, love will come your way. And if it should stay, you better hold onto it tight. And never let it go, not love. It's a shinning star that's here to guide you. Every lover knows, you've got to hold onto the feeling inside you. Let the feeling flow and I'm sure love will grow."

Mr. Fantasy

After putting that to rest, I happened to have an opportunity to go on a date with a long time crush of mine. It has been, by far, one of my favorite first dates. We danced, laughed, danced, laughed, talked music, listened to music. Picture this: Beautiful summer night, dressed, out in the city with the guy you've crushed on for about four years. (Who happens to be older. Major plus!) He holds your hand, walks on the correct side of the street and looks into your eyes touching your heart not skimming the surface. Wow. 


Ok, ok...you're wondering well...what was the second date like. Where'd it go from there? Me being me, freaked out and backed away a few days later. Ha, I'm ridiculous. But, anyhow, it wasn't going to work for various reasons. Boy, was it dreamy...


We have a joke we were once married in a past life. He's one of my greatest friends. 

"Cause nothing compares to you."

And The Ride Continues: 

In the midst of all this I had a (different) friend of mine, who fell for me. Or liked me. However you want to put it. It took months to cultivate. I had things, or a person, to let go of. He and I, well I can't explain it...
Rock and roll "bad boy" who speaks another language. Come on...every girl's dream. I couldn't settle myself on him, I'm still not sure why... He seems so happy now. That's all that really matters. I'll always adore him because he truly is uniquely wonderful. His heart is filled with love. He's a catch, a pure soul. 

"This is the deep and dying breath of this love that we've been working one. Can't seem to hold you like I want to so I can feel you in my arms. Nobody's gonna come and save you, we've pulled to many false alarms. We're going down and you can see it too. We're going down and you know that we're doomed. My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room."

I certainly do miss our musical conversations. Musical bonds for me are huge, therefore not easily disposable. The last three guys I've mentioned have shared with me their love for music which is forever ingrained in my heart. No matter where I am, I'll have that piece of them. I'll cherish it my entire life. 


Once I let that cat and mouse game go, finally, I made the big decision to move on. I had to release him from my personal confusion. I was searching for growth. Building my makeup business and a life to call my own. 

Hi, Mr. Lonely. Come on in. 

Living on your own sparks all kinds of emotions. Loneliness certainly crept up on me. I've met Mr. Lonely before. He never stays very long. I welcome him in, make him a cup of tea and then interrogate him. By doing this I realize I've never been lonely. So I then return to my happiness. However, I did realize it may be time to allow someone to hold my heart again. 


Out of curiosity, I joined Match.com for a maybe two weeks. I met one guy from it. Which is a whole other story in itself. Haha. Ahh, what the hell...here it is: 

We meet at Chickies-Parx on his thirtieth birthday night. (Bad news bears. Of course he wants to get wasted.) We sit down, I'm trying not to stare at his mild snaggle tooth (Big deal for me. Bad teeth are an immediate DB, deal breaker), he orders a beer and two shots. (YIKES!) He's adorable, dresses nice...plus, plus. Drinking, snaggle tooth...MINUS,MINUS. Whatever, go big or go home. My friends are at Three Sixty in Parx, so we go to dance. And continue to drink of course. (What was I thinking. Well, I knew I'd never see him again so I didn't care.) Being the dancer I love to be, I drag him out on the dance floor. Wasted and flinging myself about. I pull my let me just wrap my leg around you and expect you to be ready even though you're wasted move. BOOM. I go down on the dance floor. Then there's a bouncer standing over me making sure I'm ok. Haha. Anyway....DISASTER. He texts me the next day to hang out, I politely decline. 

There's no way in hell.

DISCLAIMER: Ladies, do not drink nor allow your date to get drunk. Keep it classy, especially if you're looking for love. Two drink minimum. Thank you Patti Stanger.

Thank you Match.com for a fantastically embarrassing funny story. Subscription, canceled. 

Besides those stories, I have had some fantastic one night dates... 


Had a total muscle bound hottie take me on a Habatichi dinner date. What a sweetheart. 


Also had a friend of mine take me out to my favorite, not cheap, restaurant in the city. I didn't consider it a date, however, I'm pretty sure it was. Whatever it was, I had an amazing time. :)

Possibly...

And now "seeing" a Mr. Wonderful. A possible keeper. (If I decide I'm even ready for that.) A gentlemen to the extreme. Naturally, I'm nervous. However, I'm more excited. He's adventurous, yet grounded. Loaded with compassion, sincere and giving to the core. And, he's got a nice big truck. (Major plus in my book.) He's got a little country in him, a lot of hard worker, and tons of hobbies/toys to keep himself occupied (and leaves me plenty of time for my horses and friends)...We shall see...  :) 

To be continued.....
(And I shall keep you informed.) 


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A friend of mine submitted a short date story for some comic, relief. As a person who can't stand Jersey Shore, I find this story extremely funny. 

"I went to the bar a few months ago with one of my friends. We were dancing alone and then a guy came up to me, so we started talking. He introduced me to his friends but, his one friend kind of stuck out. He was really good looking, with his Ed Hardy nonsense, blowout...but I thought nothing of it. He seemed interesting, Italian, tall, dark, very handsome, dressed like a Guido but whatever. He was telling me how he's from South Philly, similar to my family. Told me his name was Jionni, he lives alone, works in construction...blah blah. So, we exchanged numbers. We talked for a few days nonstop. He finally asked me to go on a date to South Street. I told him I would rather meet him there. So we met at the parking lot. We walked around South Street, he wanted to hold hands which I thought was awkward...but oh well. We found something to eat. At dinner, Jersey Shore was brought up. He was dead  serious, 100% not lying when he said this...His idol is Mike the situation. He wants to be just like him. He said he has pictures up of him on his wall...THEN decides to tell me...his name is JOHN...from West Chester, had no family in South Philly, he still lives at home with his family...and is a painter. THEN proceeds to ask me to throw in $10 to the tab. I paid, told him I was tired...and went home. Then deleted his number. 

Just my luck. Typical tool."

- Lauren Aninsman

THANKS LAUREN!

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Happy Holidays Beautiful Blog Readers! 

I love you all. I wish you and your families the happiest of holidays! 

Be safe, be merry. 

Until next time.......

Forever Love, 

Brittany 

Time cast a spell on you.

"You could be my silver spring,

Blue green colors flashing.

I would be your only dream,

Your shining armor, ocean crashing."

(Fleetwood Mac - Silver Spring)

Here I am, flicking back and forth between Easy A and Eat Pray Love while waiting for this thunderstorm to start (becuase I have a new found obession with the rain). Oh how this sum up my life at the current moment. I've been on this continuous journey of finding peace in my heart and balance in my life. I've also been on this continuous quest to define love and hopefully find it. While flicking from movie to movie I realized that my thoughts about all this were probably something I should share with my blog reading friends. What I'm about to say I can say knowing with confidence, I'm not the only one. 

What I have to say to you beautiful people is quite the assortment of my jumbled thoughts about life and love. 

"Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself." 

Firstly, I'm watching Eat Pray Love. In this movie she divorces her husband who can't simply understand why. Well, she never gives him an explanation. And in this movie she is told she has to stop waiting for him to forgive her. She has to simply forgive herself first. This takes me back to my first love. My only love this far in life. Most people know I was in an almost four year long relationship. Our relationship ended in me completely breaking his heart. I never really knew how bad I broke it until we finally talked a year later and he shared how bad he hurt from it. I've carried around a lot of guilt about it. I would always say "I know I broke his heart." Long story short after a year of not talking I wrote him a letter before I moved to New York City. We ended up talking again and "rekindling" what we once had. However, this version of it was very different. The second time around thing just wasn't going to work. He has forgiven me for breaking his heart and is clearly over it. I'm starting to realize I haven't quite forgiven myself for hurting someone else so much. I'm kind of thinking out loud here, but I think if I forgive myself for hurting someone else I can love again. 

It's been almost three years since that relationship. I haven't been in any other ones. I mean flings and what not, yes. But a real, full throttle relationship...hell no. If you're reading this and are a guy I've associated with in  a romantic way, you'll know this to be true. Whenever a guy tries to get close to me, I push him directly into the friend zone. I strap the finest sneakers on my brain and run any emotions or thoughts about that person right away. I find every reason I can create in my mind, a justification as to why it's not right before I've even planted the idea properly. So, I'm going to try to forgive myself for breaking a person's heart that would have loved me the rest of my life, even though it wasn't a healthy relationship. I'm going to send my ex a little love and light whenever he crosses my mind. Simply, I do not want to be responsible for hurting someone's heart the way I did again, even though it had to be done. I guess we can all be a little too hard on ourselves. If you are realizing what I am, forgive yourself. It may not be easy, but it has to be done in order to move forward. And if the shoe is on the other foot, forgive your ex for breaking your heart. I'm sure you cross their mind from time to time and they didn't really want to shove a knife into your heart. 

"Some say that the age of chivalry is past, that the spirit of romance is dead. The age of chivalry is never past, so long as there is a wrong left unredressed on earth."

(I don't know why this section is white, I didn't do it on purpose. Ugh.)

Then, I flip the channel. Easy A is full of life lessons while distracting you with some comic relief. In the movie Olive Penderghast says:

“Whatever happened to chivalry? Does it only exist in 80’s movies? I want John Cusack holding a boombox outside my window. I wanna ride off on a lawnmower with Patrick Dempsey. I want Jake from Sixteen Candles waiting outside the church for me. I want Judd Nelson thrusting his fist into the air because he knows he got me. Just once I want my life to be like an 80’s movie, preferably one with a really awesome musical number for no apparent reason. But no, no, John Huges did not direct my life.”

This whole 80's movie idea has me thinking, well reassuring how I feel about the way men and women interact nowadays. At the end of the movie the guy she has had a crush on since eighth grade shows up on a lawn mower holding up speakers (playing eighties music, of course.) to woo her. On a serious, honest level I  have guys interested in me that all have something to offer, but they get so lost in this world of technology. With that somehow their manhood seems to disappear. I'm not saying all this being a bitch, I'm simply stating an opinion from a women's point of view. I had a guy last summer whose eye I caught. One of the reasons he sparked my curiosity was due to the fact he actually picked up the phone. I was lucky enough to have lived life before this whole texting world took off. I remember only having the option to call someone. You talked on the phone for hours about nothing, just to feel close. That's where a connection is made, from REAL communication. Not all this texting or Facebooking nonsense. 

My gripe in a nutshell is that guys have somehow lost that instinct that comes with being a man. I'm not talking about starting fights, carrying cases of beer or any of that jersey shore muscle bullshit. I'm talking showing up at a girl's house with a bouquet of flowers just to tell her she's beautiful. I'm talking a long drive just to converse and listen to good music, not even caring if you get that kiss. That manliness where you grab a women, tell her she's gorgeous and kiss her because you want to. Every girl wants a man to be a man. It is what it is. Men are men, women are women. Somehow, with all this women's rights stuff we've forgot about our men. They want to be loved just like we do, but we've managed to make them feel like their role as a man isn't as important. 

My friend and I always joke around about putting us women back in the kitchen. But, in all seriousness, it'd be nice for men to leave their computer screen or cell phone keyboards to indulge in some good old fashion chivalry with a touch of persistence. On my quest to define love, I've come to realized that maybe it isn't always that love at first sight thing. I think it grows out of connection. When your heart just can't stop smiling because it can feel how special that other person treats you. 

I wish we could all unplug sometimes. Step away from these computer screens and remember what it is to play in the grass in bare feet. When that day comes, love will be able to shine. Divorce wouldn't be so apparent because people would have less of a chance to stalk peoples Facebook's fantasizing about how green the grass is on the other side. 

There you have it, my compilation of thoughts triggered by the movies that pulled my attention. In Eat Pray Love there's a part where the main character gets told if she just cleared her mind from all the nonsense there's a doorway where the universe would just rush in. This leads me to believe that these movies were on just so I could be drawn to them to cause this little ephiany. 

One last thought and then I'll leave you with some side notes and tid bits. 

Maybe instead of this blame game we like to put on each other, we could work together. Males think females are the root of all evil and females think this of males. Let's love together. Play your role as nature intended and see how quickly love can bloom. 

"We're all in this together."  

Forever Love

and buckets of sunshie

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BrittyLoveNotes

Try saying this to yourself:

"I love and repect myself. I'm happy to be alive."

Most heavily sprayed crops are fruit.

When food doesn't digest, it decomposes in your body. If it doesn't decompose, it becomes septic.

The sickest nations in the world eat red meat.

Our ancestors were nomadic. They did this to eat. 

Everything works on vibration, frequency and light.

Jewelry was originally created for therapeutic reasons.

Children now eat double their weight in sugar in a year.

Hormones are a chemical language how cells communicate.

Aguave has more sugar in it than regular sugar.

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Side Notes

I'm finally getting the lead out of me and am kick starting my makeup business. 

If you didn't know, I went to school in New York City to become a professional makeup artist. 

Find my page: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Brittany-Renee-Makeup-Artist/254017201285198

LIKE it! 

Contact me for appointments. And don't forget to tell your friends, neighbors, family, co-workers, friend's friends (okay you get the point) all about me. :) 

I want everyone to feel as beautiful on the outside as they are on the inside. 

When you think you know everything, you know nothing.

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But I know the heart of life is good

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
Fear is a friend that you misunderstood
But I know the heart of life is good
I know it's good

- The Heart Of Life, John Mayer

(Snippet of the lyrics.)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ygfvt0UBveY&feature=related

If there's anything I enjoy more (usually hate at the time) it's a breakdown experience. It's one of those moments that can last a few days, weeks, maybe longer. It's hard and heartwrenching at the time, but ends in a beauitful awakening. If there's one thing we have to remember it's this:

The only thing that never changes is that everything changes.

I really do not like change. I've come to except it easier, but it's still something that shakes me a little. Once in High School, my teacher wanted to move everyone's seats around. I loved where my seat was in the classroom and who I was seated near. There was no stopping her from doing this. I tried. Believe me. When I got my new seat, I honestly teared up. Looking back it's embarrassing, but I can laugh. Change is inevitable. 

With that said, my life has been changing or shifting lately. It seems as though everyone else's is too. I feel as if it’s coinciding with the shift of seasons that will happen in just a few weeks. We all are a part of this Earth, so why not. My friendships have changed, my home life, work, and love. In this midst of all this change I'm naturally uncomfortable. I believe everything happens for a reason, exactly when it should, so I'm trying to take it all as it comes. What I've learned in this change so far:

Everything I thought I knew has become a little grey.

Or is everything grey? Is there no black and white?

Bottom line, life is forever shifting and changing. Take from the change the beauty. Feel the sadness to grow from it. This is what I am doing. The moment I thought I had it all figured out, I realized I had nothing figured out. There are a lot of variables that get thrown into life. There's emotion, there's those things that get thrown our way out of the blue.

 

Two things I've realized about myself.

One:

I spread myself too thin. By doing this, I accomplish nothing. I once told a friend this pertaining to a guy. "Leave a little piece of your heart for yourself." But, I think this is important to apply this to everything in life. When you give your whole heart, leaving nothing for yourself, you give away your happiness. If there's no happiness in your own heart, you certainly won't find it anywhere else.

Two:

Family. Spending time with family. Of course, family time can be aggravating. Everyone's family gets on their nerves at some point. But, when I'm with them life makes sense. It's easy, happy, refreshing.
Going to Italy really made me realize the value of family time. In Italy, their friends are their family. They sit around for HOURS just talking, joking, or playing. Not playing on phones or watching TV. I came home with a deeper appreciation for my family.
 Living a very single, young life I can honestly say I've neglected the time I could spend with my family to do something "exciting." Now, I'd rather soak up laughter and love with people who will never dismiss me. They will never give up on me. They will never question the person I am.
 My favorite thing in the world is when I hug my sister good-bye (She moved to the State College area for a teaching job and for love.) we hug like we never want to let go. We usually say good-bye three or four times. It usually ends in one of us tearing. The love of family is undying. It doesn't go anywhere. It can survive any storm. Spend time with your family. Hug and kiss the people you love. Appreciate every moment.

 

So...

I've been humbled and a whole hell lot of confused over the past couple weeks. My friend Corey told me, "There's no good. There's no bad. There just is." I've been sitting on this one. I'm thinking it breaks down like this. The good could have come from bad. The good could turn bad. The bad can be beautiful. The bad can turn something or someone good. So, there just is. Everything is everything. (Yes, it's also the title of a Lauryn Hill song. Haha.) So is there black and is there white? In my opinion, no. It's all grey. We are one. We are each other. We can do anything, with anything. "There just is." Kind of a brain teaser, have fun with it. Take from it something you can apply to your life.

I can't be anyone, but myself. I take in everything people give to me or show me. Sometimes I absorb it, sometimes I dismiss it. But at the end of the day, I'm proud of the person I am. I never intentionally hurt anyone. I make mistakes, but always learn from them. I keep my heart open. I believe in myself. I feel as though that is all that can matter. If you believe in who you are, everyone else naturally will as well. Redefine yourself to become a greater version of you.

I'm doing this. I'm embracing the bumps along the road. I'm learning from everyone I meet. I truly feel that people come into our lives for a purpose. They have something to "give" us. It's easy to get mad; it's easy to let people go. I've been taking the harder route to dive into the confusing situations to really figure out what I'm suppose to gain from the relationships.

I'm going to conclude this rambling of a blog with this...

Live a whole lot.

Travel. Talk to strangers. Engage in meaningful conversation. Enjoy the precious moments in your life with the precious people in your life. Love with all of your heart while saving that little piece for yourself. Listen instead of talking sometimes. Allow someone to teach you something. Break down your walls to let people in. Laugh, a lot! And never, ever forget the hugs and kisses.




Forever Love.

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BrittyLoveNotes

This section is where I'm going to leave tid bits of information. Whatever it may be, remember to take it or leave it. I'm just putting it out there.

""If you don't take care of your body, where are you going to live?"

Sesame seeds are a complete protein and contain calcium.

Algae is the highest nutrient rich food on this planet. It protects life, is the highest protein, and prolongs life.

Blue-green algae actually created all life on Earth.

(I drink blue-green algae in my green juice. You can Google E3Live and learn more about it!)

If you have dark circle under your eyes, it is mostly likely because of problems in the liver or gallbladder. If your eye circles are puffy, check on your kidneys.

The closer to the ocean you find a coconut, the sweeter it will be.

1% of your day should be spent talking about food and money. (Absorb that one!)

Before WWII, there was nothing but organic food.

Sharing other people's problems or diseases makes it much harder for that person to get over it.

Ohhh, I have so many of these fun tid bits. I can't wait to keep sharing them!


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Side Notes:

The other Sunday I went to the shore for the day with my Dad.

These are a few pictures I took. :)

My Daddy.

This past weekend we took a family trip up to visit my sister.

Pants I found hanging on a wall.

Buy local. Buy fresh.

Just an ordinary day.

If you're ever near State College, find this place. The food is amazing. You won't be disappointed.

Fun. :)

Addison learned how to jump a log!

Action shots!

Dad, Olivia, and I. With our bags of dirt to sift for gems!

With our Mommy.

I love this picture.

Cool hats, don't you think so? Haha.

I love this one too.

I felt like (and was kind of nerdy hoping) I was going in Batman's Bat Cave.

Penn's Cave was REALLY cool. Go if you're up that way. It's so worth it.

A spider web Olivia pointed out to me.

A few rain drops on a flower. :)

JULY 28, 2011

Giuliana Rosaria

was born

7 lbs 10 Ounces

to

Vito and Sandra Russo

I get to be this precious perfect bundle of joy's Godmother. <3